summer 2006, 189 lbs
(bad example, but pics were few & far between then)
19 May 2007
c. 165-170 lbs
2nd from left
I need encouragement. I'm depressed about a lot of things and feel like a failure right now in all aspects of life. It's hard to act happy, but when I shut off/act melancholy, JT feels so helpless when he can't make things better. I love that about him. He doesn't expect me to be happy all the time, either, because most of the time I am, but when I'm not, he's just there for me. When my job comes, things will get much better. That's what I have to keep telling myself.